I have to be honest, I’m looking forward to writing a blog on fun, family and friends. With the passing of Clark Rogers this week and several others I’ve heard about since, all roads keep leading me back to thoughts on the brevity of life. The word death is such a heavy and serious word and frankly one most of us avoid thinking about or discussing. Fear and anxiety set in as we ponder the unknown. During Jesus’ time hear on earth, he displayed His ability to conquer death. Yes, He overcame His own death on the cross, but he also raised Lazarus and Jairus’ daughter from death to life. No doubt, it is not as common to see such miracles face to face today, but that is certainly not to say it can’t and doesn’t happen. It still can and does on occasion, as Jesus is still alive in the heart of every believer and has all power to raise the dead.
God spoke to my heart yesterday about how He not only has the power to raise the physical body to life, but also the spiritual and emotional decay of our hearts. He led me to think about the areas in my life that I’ve either pushed away or left for dead. This could be broken earthly relationships, areas of regret or sin, my relationship with God Himself, hurts or assaults from my past and so on. The one thing that stood out for me was a broken friendship from my college years. This friend and I were inseparable back then. We loved God together, she sang in my wedding and was even my maid of honor. Due to insecurities, misunderstandings, and maybe my sometimes overbearing personality, we parted ways and haven’t spoken for almost 10 years. This was a tremendous loss and an area of a lot of grief, hurt, bitterness, and relational insecurity. Over those years we have had written contact maybe 3 times. This is something that I’ve definitely pushed to the back of mind and laid to rest. Although I know God certainly can raise this dead relationship back to life, I’m not so confident that it will be His plan to do so. This friend and I have corresponded by email over the past 6 months. Although there was no resolution, healing began in my heart simply through some words of closure. I trust God that by His power and Spirit, if He wills it, that brokenness can and will be mended. I pray for it for myself, but for her as well. I have loved her all of these years, even through the brokenness and decay of the relationship.
What things in your life have you pushed away and hidden in your innermost place? Is there anything that you have left there that you need to allow Jesus to transform and raise to life? What areas of brokenness do you need for Him to heal? Yesterday I journaled this prayer, “Truly, where your Spirit is Lord, there IS freedom. We can have complete freedom from all that holds us captive, in You. In Your word You say, ‘I will ransom them from the power of the grave. I will redeem them from death. Where, O death, are your plagues? Where, O grave, is your destruction?’ (Hosea 13:14) Thank you Lord for your power over death and the grave. Thank You for your redeeming love and forgiveness. Thank you that in the name of Jesus, those closed off caskets of our souls, can be opened, cleaned out and raised to life.”