The following is an email sent to a friend yesterday 3/22/2010 in regard to the “She Speaks” Scholarship. Marianne had randomly written to encourage me in my writing. This was my response.
Thank you Marianne! You are so sweet and encouraging, as always. You know, it hasn’t really occurred to me to “look for” a publisher. Fleeting thoughts of compiling my thoughts into a book have occurred to me at different times, but I have no knowledge of the steps to take to get there. I guess I figure God’s got it. If HE wants me to have a book, He’ll do it. Maybe that’s too passive an approach!?!?
Interestingly enough, this morning I went on Facebook.com and browsed through the home page. I came across a link posted by a friend for the Proverbs 31 “She Speaks” conference scholarship. The conference is in July. The value of this scholarship is $575 and there’s absolutely NO way I could go unless I somehow got the scholarship. This particular conference has been mentioned to me several times over the past year. When I saw this link today, I immediately felt the Holy Spirit speak to me. So I just checked it out to see what it’s all about.
To enter, I must submit a post on my blog about why I want to receive the scholarship. I can do that, but it’s due this Friday, and I need to be working on writing the devotions for Easter. Oh and did I mention that at this conference you go to classes on the ins and outs of public speaking, writing, and leadership in ministry? There will be speakers, writers, and yes you guessed it publishers there with whom to ask questions and make contacts.
So, I just prayed “God please show me if this is something you want me to pursue. I don’t want to even spend my time and energy pursuing this if it’s not what you want. Please confirm. I don’t want to be anywhere if you don’t want me there. It would be pointless! And, I don’t want this to be something the enemy is just trying to use to distract me from writing my devotions effectively. Just show me.” I didn’t know how He would, but I knew I would know if He confirmed it. Not long after I prayed this (maybe an hour), I read your email. You asked if I had “thought of trying to find a publisher.” That was it! God confirmed it to me with that word publisher. That’s much of what this conference is about and you had no way of knowing…. You also wrote that you would pray and trusted God would guide me in my writing. Just another confirmation.
I love our God and how faithful and loving He is to us when we spend our time in passionate pursuit of Him…. and even when we don’t. His love is constant regardless of our actions or the conditions of our love toward Him. He’s so faithful to listen and delight in us as his children. And that my sweet friend is in part what I want to share with anyone who’s willing to listen or read. Sorry for the long response, but I just had to share with you how Jesus, the Lover of our souls, used YOU today in my life. Now whether or not I win the scholarship is left to be seen. But I know to move forward simply because God said do so! That’s all I need!
Love you much,
* Receiving this scholarship http://lysaterkeurst.blogspot.com/2010/03/she-speaks-scholarship-contest.html, and in turn going to the “She Speaks” Conference http://www.shespeaksconference.com/ would certainly better equip me to do all that God is calling me to do in ministry… write more effectively, speak passionately, and lead confidently. If God says go, I’ll go. Where God guides He also provides, and that I believe with my whole heart! I trust Him fully and am constantly amazed by His love and attention to the details of my life. I can’t help but be overwhelmed by the joy of His presence! Thank you for this incredible opportunity.