My Conversation with God

This morning as I had my quiet time with God, I felt emotional and confused about my future.  I want to follow God in every way, but I am typically a “let’s get this show on the road” and “take the bull by the horns” type of person.  Waiting has never been my strong suit.  And right now I feel overwhelmed with decisions that could change the course of my life, so I feel paralyzed to do anything.  So many people have well-meaning ideas about what I should do, even people I would consider to have Godly wisdom and discernment.  But all of these ideas are leaving me feeling a bit confused.  It feels like my life is a big question mark.  Career or calling?  Sell or not?  Lead a women’s group or not?  You get the picture.  Most of these hinge on finances.  Money. Money.  Money.  The enemy loves to use it to get our focus off of God and His plans for us.  Fortunately, my husband completely trusts God for provision and encourages me to do whatever God is telling me to do.  So I’m feeling no pressure to make decisions from anyone but myself, but the pressure and confusion are there nonetheless. 

So, Jesus got to hear it all this morning as I poured it out to Him, as if He didn’t already know and as if I hadn’t already been talking to Him about it.  I imagined Him thinking, “Oh boy, here we go again.”  But it comforted me to know that He was going to our Father with all of this stuff.  He knows me by name, knows all of my thoughts, dreams, gifts, abilities, personality, and willingness to do whatever He wants.  He loves me, and delights to intercede on my behalf.  I know He has a purpose for my life, and it’s surely bigger than what my mind and eyes can see.  As I prayed, I was so comforted by that thought!  I knew in that moment that there was a meeting taking place between me, Jesus, Father, and Holy Spirit.   They listened, they cared, and their plans for me were perfect… and so was their timing!

I asked God to speak to me today in His Word or in other ways.  I asked that He open my eyes to see and ears to hear Him.  As I followed the prayer with a couple of short devotions and scripture reading, this is how He answered.  I knew He was speaking to me so clearly, it almost felt audible!

Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today.  (Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which he will shew to you today.  KJV) The Egyptians you see today you will never see again.  The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.”  Exodus 14:13-14

These words contain God’s command to the believer when he is reduced to great straits and brought into extraordinary difficulties.  He cannot retreat; he cannot go forward; he is shut up on the right hand and on the left; what is he now to do?  The Master’s word to him is “Stand still.”  It will be well for him if at such times he listens only to his Master’s word, for other and evil advisers come with their suggestions.  Despair whispers, “Lie down and die; give it all up.”  But God would have us put on a cheerful courage, and even in our worst times rejoice in His love and faithfulness.  Cowardice says, “Retreat; go back to the worldling’s way of action; you cannot play the Christian’s part it is too difficult.  Relinquish your principles.”   But, however much Satan may urge this course upon you, you cannot follow it if you are a child of God.  Precipitancy cries, “Do something. Stir yourself; to stand still and wait is sheer idleness.”  We must be doing something at once– we must do it, so we think–instead of looking to the Lord, who will not only do something but will do everything.  Presumption boasts, “If the sea be before you, march into it and expect a miracle.”  But Faith listens neither to Presumption, nor to Despair, nor to Cowardice, nor to Precipitancy, but it hears God say, “Stand still”–keep the posture of an upright man (or woman), ready for action, expecting further orders, cheerfully and patiently awaiting the directing voice; and it will not be long ere God shall say to you, as distinctly as Moses said it to the people of  Israel, “Go forward.”   

Charles H. Spurgeon                                                 

I read this with tears streaming down my face, awed once again that God had so quickly and faithfully heard me, and cared to speak words of promise, truth and comfort.  “Be still.  Don’t be afraid.  I’m going to do this.  Trust me.  I’m going to fight for you and deliver you Rivera.  Be still.”  Ahhhh.  How beautiful His voice.  “Be still, and know that I am God.”  Psalm 46:10a

So I write all of this to encourage you.  He delights in you in the same way.  You’re no different.  Be still in His presence.  Communicate with Him.  Jesus delights to talk to His Father about you.  He knows you by name and has a beautiful plan for your life.  Let Him use it for His eternal purposes.  Let Him lead you to let your life make a difference!

4 thoughts on “My Conversation with God

  1. Rachael Kennedy says:

    Wow Rivera! This is exactly what I needed to hear today. Thank you for sharing. I am going to pass this along to others that I think could benefit from how God spoke to you today.

    1. Rivera Douthit says:

      Thank you for your encouraging words Rachael:) Thank God that He’s willing to use my stuff for something other than just that–my stuff. It’s always my hope that somehow God will use it to help other people. We’re all doing this thing called life together. Helping one another is a vital part of it. Since I’m home with my kids all summer, writing is one of the ways God’s given me to be His hands and feet. 🙂

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