This Door Or That

I remember when God closed the doors for us to stay in California and everything pointed to moving to North Carolina. It was obvious and scary.  I’m from NC, so there was some comfort in that for me. However my entire adult, married life had been spent in northern California. The thought of new friends, new church, new jobs, and a new home– with toddlers–was unnerving.  I remember thinking what if we hate it there, what if we can’t find jobs, what if we can’t get a loan to build on the land we bought, what if, what if, what if…

I imagine Joshua felt much the same way when God told him he would lead the Israelites into the Promised Land. He was following in the footsteps of a legend… Moses. Tough shoes to fill! I can hear him now at least thinking to himself, “God I know Moses laid hands on me and promoted me to this position by Your guidance, but what if I don’t feel strong enough. What if I’m not worthy! What if I’m not capable!” But God spoke clearly, casting out every fear and “what if” Joshua may have had with His confirming words,

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go?” Joshua 1:9

It was a comfort to know God was guiding us, but in the timeline of my life, this was a spiritually confusing and rebellious time for me.  I wasn’t honoring Him with my life, still God’s hand was on me.   He never let me go.  Despite my actions, He had a plan for my life.

Crazy, I couldn’t have imagined this life for myself if I’d tried.  I know we never deserve anything He chooses to do for us, but I’m so overwhelmed that He chose not only to hold on to me when I had let go of His hand, but He broadened my borders!  He lavished His love and gave me more than imaginable at a time when I least deserved it…during rebellion!

I was afraid!  I feared following Him with a move.  I feared the consequences of my actions.  I feared that God would never be able to use me.  Fear can be crippling!

“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear.”  1 John 4:18

But, Love Himself drives out fear if we let Him. The same promise God made Joshua is true for us!  Be strong and courageous, trusting God to forgive and equip and lead through the door that’s best to fulfill His purposes.

What door will we choose, fear or faith?

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

“A man’s steps are directed by the LORD. How then can anyone understand his own way?” Proverbs 20:24

18 thoughts on “This Door Or That

  1. dparkins says:

    Wow. This is timely. I’m faced with the reality, though not across the US, to move about seven hours from where I have lived for a while; with three children under the age of 6! Ugh, thank you for this reminder…still praying through this and a little anxious, though I have seen His faithfulness throughout it all.

    1. Rivera Douthit says:

      I will pray for His continued confirmation and guidance as you step out to follow Him. Where He wants us and where He’s clearly guiding is always the place of the most joy and contentment. Blessings on you, your family, and your writing! Thanks for stopping by!

  2. Amy Alves says:

    I love it how God follows us, even when we don’t follow Him. It’s a part of all of our histories. Thank you God, that is changing. He is restoring us, His beloved! You’re beautiful Rivera! 🙂 ~ Blessings, Amy

  3. Mary says:

    Rivera ,
    Love your message. This is always a struggle for me. It requires TRUST and FAITH which are so difficult for me.
    Growing up in a confusing time and environment shakes your very being. The only way “out” is to trust God . It is taking me a lifetime to learn this.
    Thank you for your insight…..and thank you God for my friend , Rivera.

  4. Rivera Douthit says:

    Thank you Rebecca… Love you too. And I know whatever it is, God has a beautiful plan for your life. AND He has plans to see you through it if you’re willing to step out:)

  5. rebeccaaarup says:

    I think we talked a little about this during our phone call! You know, I have been sensing God’s voice telling me to start something for months now…and the same things go through my head! “I’m not qualified, I’m not smart enough, I won’t do it right….” and I have managed to procrastinate this thing, literally, for months. Now after reading this it creeps back up into my head. Thank you for your wonderful wise words! I know you are God’s pencil as He uses you to write His message! I wanna be a pencil too! =) Love you!

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