I know what God wants from me. I know what I’m supposed to do. I’ve known for years. But now that it’s beginning to happen, I hesitate. I don’t feel capable. I don’t feel worthy. Actually, if you want to know the truth, I’m plain scared.
I don’t consider myself a writer or a speaker, necessarily. But I know I’m a communicator. I’m an influencer and encourager.
My heart is for justice and truth. I want people to know Jesus, like really know Him personally, and not just from a distance. I desire healing for the hurting and wholeness for the broken. I want to be a spark that God uses to light a fire–Holy Spirit fire–in people.
Here I am faced with opportunity to be His vessel to speak truth, and Fear is trying to overtake me. But I’ve decided to politely refuse Fear’s offer. I’d rather trust God and stand in awe of Him than be crippled by Fear.
I’m at a crossroads where I have to go with what I KNOW rather than what I feel. I know if Jesus is for me, who can be against me? Right? And, Jesus IS for me! He will sustain me. He will give me what I need, when I need it.
The truth is… I can’t do this, but HE CAN!
He is faithful.
During my moments of fretting, He pointed these verses out. He showed me these simultaneously, not just one but two times, over the past week.
“For you shall go to all to whom I send you, And whatever I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of their faces, For I am with you to deliver you,” says the Lord. Then the Lord put forth His hand and touched my mouth, and the Lord said to me: “Behold, I have put My words in your mouth…”// “Therefore prepare yourself and arise, And speak to them all that I command you.” ~Jeremiah 1:7-9, 17
“Thus says the Lord to you: ‘Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God’s.” ~2 Chronicles 20:15b
Not only do His words comfort, they confirm. They tell me to trust. They tell me I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing. They tell me I have nothing to fear.
So with reminders from God and prayers from some really incredible friends, as anxiety creeps, I choose joy. I choose confidence. I know I’m called, and by the power and authority of Jesus living in me, I can rest. He will give me all that I need. I’m excited for what God is about to do. I expect Him to, once again, leave me and everyone else in awe of Him! Amen!
** If you are so moved by God, I would love for you to stand with me in prayer for this coming event. I pray God’s glory all over it! I pray for revival.