When God Says “Now” And You Say, “Uhhhh”

Through the years, I often asked God if He wanted me to share any speaking videos. I never felt a nudge or release from Him to do it. This was fine with me, because honestly it felt safe. I don’t know about you but like most people, especially women, I sometimes battle the “what ifs.” Ultimately the biggest what ifs for me are hinging on deep-seated fear. What if I fail. What if I’m rejected. And so on!

 

Fear tries to creep in to immobilize, causing me to want to run and hide. But my desire to do what God is asking of me overrides my fear. I make a conscious decision to allow obedience to win no matter how afraid I may feel.

 

After seven years or so of collecting speaking videos in a dresser drawer, God said (this summer), “Okay Rivera, it’s time to share.” I knew this would require me putting myself out there, flaws and all. Of course I questioned God to be sure I was hearing right.

 

I always felt there was a certain amount of humility in staying hidden. Then God asked me to do the opposite and I discovered the real humility was in being willing to be obedient no matter what. To overcome fear of man (or what people think) and step head on into the reverential fear of the Lord by doing exactly what He’s asking of me, I’m having to lay myself down. It is what it is. I’m not perfect and God is. The message is more important than the messenger. What I’m saying is more important than how I look or sound saying it.

 

So with my hands over my eyes, and biting my lip, here goes. You see, God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power of love and of sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

 

This is truth. This is what we’ve been given. On this I will stand.

 

If this video blesses you, I humbly ask you to share. You never know who in your sphere of influence may be blessed as well.

 

Much love to you all.

Rivera

 

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